…….I watch a lot of tiktok. …….eeekkkk I know. I know. LOL
But I do. I’m a people watcher, we know this. Tiktok is useful to a point for people watching. And ART. oh the Art. These are two of my favorite things: Art and people watching. I mean really people are Art. Really fucked up Art for the most part. But. Art.
Really what interests me are people’s stories, so when I can’t sleep or when my PTSD rears it’s really fucked up head I run away to other people’s thoughts. Also – Did you know Lindsey Stirling does lives and plays on request on Tiktok? She’s playing live right now and I cannot get enough.
On tiktok there are so many people finding out through 23andme that the parents they grew up with aren’t their biological parents. Some of these stories are heartbreaking. Most of these stories are heartbreaking. You know, stories of people finding out they were switched at birth, finding out their dad wasn’t their dad or their mom wasn’t their mom, and how horribly awful it made everyone involved feel. Annnnnnnd all I can think is: Damnit, I took that damn test so that it would show me that I was switched at birth and my birth parents weren’t my birth parents, why couldn’t this happen to me. lol. I know that’s nuts, but my parents spent the time they had with me showing me, for the most part, that they didn’t want me. I am pretty sure I was the black sheep as a baby. lol.
23andme didn’t show I had been switched at birth, by the way. lol. I mean, really, it didn’t show me anything. Apparently both sides of my biological family don’t use 23andme Hahaha.
I think even if my biological parents turned out to be cereal killers I would have been ok with that. My mom wanted a baby, I was just the wrong baby. My dad wanted a son, but never the responsibility. Turns out I’m not a boy. Maybe this is where I grew the black wool?
I guess I need to do laundry and clean up the bubble mess I definitely didn’t make in the kitchen by using the wrong automatic dishwasher detergent. bahahah
xoxoxo
Catriona
CatrionaIsCrazy 
My son is IVF. He’s been asking about siblings, so his mom joined the donor registry. He has four. Which is cool… except for the fifteen year old half sister he can’t meet because HER MOM NEVER TOLD HER. My response to this was “wtf? The older she is when she finds out, the worse it’ll be.” my parents screwed up a whole lot, but one thing they did 100% right is I knew I was adopted from basically day one.
Ohhhhh man. So, my biological mom had a daughter before me. She was removed from her, legally. That child had no idea that the woman who raised her wasn’t her bio mom until the divorce (I believe). She lost her mind for a bit, I’m told it was brutal. I however was told nonchalantly while I was eating cereal, by myself, at the dinner table that I had a sister. I was probably around 7 or 8. She walked up and told me, gave a few details, and walked away. I remember thinking how so much made sense. It was wild. Broke my brain for a few.