You know how you have subjects and thoughts that you just….throw on the back burner and touch on them ever so often? Well, I don’t have one. I have a thought hurricane. It’s a constant tornado of thoughts. (Not to be confused with a ‘Pornado’, that would be fun.) My brain just never stops.
In September I moved.
In October my Aunt started to get sick.
In November I spent 3 weeks sitting beside my Gram’s best friend (Aunt) as she died of lung cancer. She was diagnosed, and within 3 weeks she was gone. Gram and I drove the 35 mins everyday to and from the Hospital to be with her.
I did a lot of sitting on the ledge praying, looking down from the seventh floor.
This was taken the day before she died. I was sitting next to her bed, I had been holding her up. She was so weak toward the end.
In January my heart was shredded by the loss of yet another family member from lung cancer, and the loss of my actual heart. Telling my son was just as painful as the three actual losses. I cannot express my life at the moment.
I have not forgotten about cards, you guys. As you can see…uh, things are not settled. ha.
I just noticed the dirty sock on my desk. wtf?